Well, I'm off on the week-long family vacation. The only good thing that will come out of this, is I will see Jacinda. Hooray! Here goes hell...I'll be back in a week.

One more thing:

Kyle, David, and I went and saw Pirates last night (4th time for me :D), David had seen it once, Kyle hadn't seen it. But he loved it! I'm glad. I haven't met one person who didn't like it. This is just an awesome movie. Throughout the whole thing Kyle kept talking about how Johnny Depp's characters are always the same. I've only seen Cry Baby, and don't really remember, so we went and rented Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, and we watched it after we went and jumpstarted Willy Mike's car. The movie was really funny until Kyle left and I fell asleep. I'll watch the rest today after work. I also rented 3 tapes of Rocko's Modern Life :D

Arrrrrrrrg!

Ok, so this post is prettymuch what I wrote to Jacinda, but I'll add more:

Wow! What a past couple of days. Monday Jess and I left at 11am on our way to Denver to see Dave Matthews Band! We finally got through hours of construction and got to the Pepsi center at like 6:30. We hung out with a couple people from AmI at a tailgating party, which was fun. Then we went into the show, which was awesome! We had really good seats too! But close to the end of the full set (before the encore) someone threw a hunting knife onstage, and it stuck into the ground between Dave and Boyd! Someone tried to kill my guys!! So the encore lasted like 20 minutes, I'm sure they were deciding whether or not to go back out. So when they finally came back out, Dave explained the whole thing and everybody booed at the guy who threw it,
but no one knows who it is. very very sad. And it was really funny, Carter (the drummer) came out with a bright yellow hard hat on. It was so cute! I wish I could have gotten a picture of it but I used up my whole camera in the main set without realizing it. :D but the concert was really really fun, I loved it! A great thing about Dave fans, is 75% of them are potheads. I love them. lol. The whole time before the show there are blinking signs saying no smoking, and I"m thinking "riiiiiiiiight..." and the second the guys come on stage, Jess and I turn to eachother, and say "smell that?" "yep...:)" hahaha. I spent $135 dollars on merchandise :) 4 shirts at $28 each (2 for me, one for Alex, who gave me money for one, and one for Paula), a special Denver show poster for $15, and a sticker for $8. I was gonna buy 2 stickers (all the others I either had or didn't like), but they were out of the other one. all the money was very well spent, I think :D so we went and stayed at my uncle's for the night and left at 10 the next morning. we got back at like 4 I think, and becca called when we were leaving denver, asking if I still wanted to go see John Mayer, and I said sure, why not! so we met at 5:30 and then went to alb to see maroon 5 (I hate their song on the radio, but their other songs are really good!), the counting crows (who weren't that great. Adam wouldn't sing, he would talk the lyrics, and not even at the right time. I didn't like it at all), and john mayer! It was really fun. I went with Kassi, Becca, Becca's bf Dylan, and his friends Nick and Mike. afterwards we went to the Frontier (restaurant near UNM open 24/7) and ate, and we finally got home at 3:00am. it was alot of fun!

I love DMB so much. I'm off in Daveland, I just don't really show it for some reason this time. And so, a late:

Husband(s) of the Week: Dave Matthews Band! I love them all so much!! LeRoi might not be the most exciting or attractive person, but damn, he can play those horns! He's an amazing saxafone player, and he also plays like all the other woodwinds that exsist in the whole world. He's amazing. Boyd is a very odd person. He's the buffest guy, and he plays a tiny little violin. How cute! He can't really sing too well, and his lyrics are shit, but he's still cool. Cuz he's Boyd. He's such a rock star, and he knows it. Have you seen the way he dresses? And his hair is cool. But he kicks ass at the violin. He goes off on awesome jams. Stefan is so cute I could just.....lick him! Ok so he holds his bass wayyyyyy up high and it looks really dorky, thats ok! Cuz he's such a bass prodigy. He joined the band when he was like 16! When he really gets into the music, he does this dance where he just bends his knees and bops up and down. He's so cute! Carter, ah! I love him so much! When he came out with a hard hat I could have died. He's the cutest person in the whole world. Not to mention the best drummer as well. He's insane. But we've gone over that before. And Dave. :D He's just one of the coolest people in the whole wide world. During the concert, while listening to lyrics of numerous songs, I found out that MANY of them describe the way I feel right now in my life. Weird. Live music does some crazy shit to ya. I love my guys so much!! Lets find a really good one here....

here we go, I love this picture!!

Spent the weekend in Alb watching Lauren's allstar tournament. It sucked. Paula isn't coming to DMB with me, so I called up Jess today, and she wants to go! Hooray! Dave tomorrow!!! Dave!!!!

If there's a god, its looking down on me now!! The only DMB show I'm going to is in Denver, and I was planning on going on Sunday, and now I DEFINITELY am! Boyd is signing autographs at Twist & Shout on Sunday, July 20 at 4:00 PM. Twist and shout in located on 300/330E. Alameda Ave. in Denver, Colorado! I am so excited! I will most likely be meeting Boyd in less than a week!!!!

::does the happy banana dance::

Applesauce is the food of the gods. Its delicious, and a low 80 calories a bowl :)

I really good thing just happened to me. Turns out life isn't so bad. I don't even know what to say. It just turns out that someone I thought had no longer cared for me really does care for me. You know when your so happy you cry? Yeah...

I saw Pirates again last night. I took my Momma and Lorn. They really liked it. Afterwards me and Lorn were Pirates for like an hour, which was really really fun. So since Casey's costume party is coming up soon, and I can't find any Lucy skirts, I'm gonna be a pirate! Arrrrrr!!! (meeho!)I'll stop by Party City today after work. This time of year costumes are nice and cheap :D

A bunch of strange 12 y/o girls and their parents (of course, not their teenage brothers) are at my house. Its Lorn's allstar teams party. They won regional, so they get to go to state. Hooray. The only good that has come out of this is that I just ate a delicious tortilla burger.

Iced tea is good.

Yesterday was Paula's bday party. We caught frogs. I wanted to keep one of them but I forgot, and John and Jeremy let them back into the lake. Brian gave Paula midevil (sp?) terrot (sp?) cards. They are the coolest things I have seen recently. Paula used them on me. It was terrifying how close it was to everything (or lack thereof) that is going on w/me right now. But they were awesome. I think the outcome was good and bad at the same time. So I asked it if I was going to get a boyfriend by the end of the summer ( I asked her magic 8 ball the same thing. It said yes 3 out of the 4 times I asked it). The ending result was this king-like dude (forget what he was called), apparently signifying some sort of male role in my life. I assume boyfriend, since that was my question. But he was also like overbearing power and shit...so maybe this won't be such a great bf. Oh well, I'll give it a shot anyways. Anything for something new.

This summer sucks.

I found another bug bite from last night. Hooray.

So next monday (the 21st) is the DMB concert in Denver!!! Hooray!!! I'm super duper excited but equally scared. See, I think I'm driving there. This was my original plan that I wanted, but my parents said no. So I checked out bus and train schedules, and they would be atleast $100 overall for me and for Paula. I am NOT paying $100 just for me to get there and back. Hell no. So I check the airline schedules, using discount sites and everything. Cheepest is $230 each. Nuh uh. So I have a talk with the dad. He says we can just drive. Now just to convince Paula's parents. I've only driven as far as Albuquerque though, so I'm a bit scared. But I'll get over it. I think it'll be awesome. I think we'll leave Sunday, the 20th, and stay at my 2nd cousin's house, then we can do whatever Monday until the concert. Then I want to leave early Tuesday if I'm gonna go to John Mayer. I'll figure all this out today. Hooray!!! Dave!!!!!

I just saw Pirates of the Caribbean: Curse of the Lost Pearl. I LOVED it! I saw it with Paula, which was fun! It was funny and Johnny Depp is REALLY REALLY REALLY HOT!!! I don't mean to sound all girly and shit, but holy god....I am so inlove with him. I've always had this strange affinity for pirates, so when I saw the previews I had to see it. He was so hot. I thought the movie was excelent!

Ok so I just REALLY shocked myself. A guy IMed me, a guy I know and talk on the phone with and everything. He's an awesome guy, and I really liked him (in that way) for a really long time. So when he IMed me, I mistook his sn for another guy...and I found myself being ALOT happier thinking it was the other guy. I don't know what it is about the other guy. I think of him alot...its weird.

Sooooooo hot, want to touch the hiney, owwwwwww!!

I forgot to do a Husband of the Week on Sunday! So here it is!

Husband of the Week: Carter Beauford, drummer of the Dave Matthews Band. He is the cutest human being alive. Not to mention he's a god. Imagine our kids. Ok so he's old enough to be my dad (he's 46, the oldest DMB member) thats ok. He started his musical career when he was only 3, when his father took him to a Buddy Rich concert, and Carter says he wanted to play drums from then on. Seriously, if you've ever heard this dude, or SEEN him, you'll be blown away. He's got about 29306809234625987 things on his drumset and the plays them all at once and still manages to blow bubble gum bubbles. At a concert some guys held up a sign that said "Carter is God" and they got drumsticks from him! What a cool guy...He's married and has a little girl :D



Here's his drums:

and

So Paula's bday is on Thursday, and her party is on Saturday. I made her something REALLY cool and crafty and arsty farsty. She says she rubbed off on me. Rrrrrrrrrow...I guess thats right. And I'll buy her other shit. I like shopping for others, especially when I know what to buy them.

I have nothing to say...

Oh! A really long time ago, I found a wedding card in the sympathy section! Coincidence? I think not...

It takes me really long to get out of my car! Especially now that I got my new faceplate for my radio. So I pull into the parking spot. Put the car in park...take out any cd I was listening to...put that cd in a single cd case in my door...take off the faceplate...place the faceplate in its little case...put the case in my purse...take out my keys...put the keys in my purse...take off my seatbelt...look in my mirror for any eye goopeys...roll up all the windows...check all the door locks...hide both of my cd cases...open my door...grab my purse...step out...lock my door...and finally close my door and walk to wherever I'm going. Now if someone is with me, add "roll up your window and lock the door, please!"

Well, my family (plus Erin-Meghan's friend; and Teresa-Daniel's wife) went to Colorado this weekend. It was ok, no major fights (not even between Meghan and Lauren). But I just need my privacy. 4 straight days with the family is just too much for me. We went to Pagosa Springs on Thursday, spent Friday there, we tubed in the river which was really fun, and really really painful. The river was kinda low so you got a rock up your ass every once a while. And I got a little sunburnt, so the rest of the trip I was afraid of the sun. Friday evening we drove to Durango and watched the fireworks there. Saturday we went to Vallacitos (a lake about half an hour from Durango. its beautiful, despite it getting quite a bit burnt from the fire 2 years ago) and screwed around in the boat. All the kids went tubing (not me, I was still afraid of the sun. plus tubing hurts like hell), which was amusing. I just sat in the front and listened to music. Thats one of the things I love doing the most. Sitting in the front of the boat listening to good music. Its very peacful for me. The air blowing in my face. I loved it. And I hid under a towel the whole time. Oh yeah, I lost my sunglasses in the river in Friday, so I spent the rest of the weekend blind. I've become very acustomed (sp?) to my sunglasses, so my eyes really hurt w/o them. I don't know how I'm gonna be able to drive. Saturday evening we went shopping in Durango, which was fun until Meghan let me know that I wasn't welcome to hang out with her and Erin, which actually hurt my feelings quite a bit. Its not like I had anyone else to hang out with. Daniel and Teresa? I'd rather not be part of a threesome with my brother. Lorn? She gets a little annoying, as she was that day. So I just chilled by myself. We had to wait for a certain trolley cuz Meghan and Erin made friends with one of the drivers last time they were there, for Memorial Day. His name is Josh. He was really cute! He was 25 but looked no more than 20. He is married and his wife is due to have a baby any day now. He had this huge goal to create a charter school for children with learning disabilities, but after hearing about it for like half an hour, I decided it was really far fetched. I wish him the best of luck....but...it doesn't seem like he'll succeed. Meghan, Erin, and I rode on the trolley talking to him for 3 hours (once Meghan announced I could hang out w/them again). It was nice I guess. Then today we left. It was a good trip I suppose. Not sure if I'm glad to be home.

The good thing about summer is that when its really hot I have no appetite for anything. So I don't eat. Its awesome. Except once it cooled down we ordered pizza and I stuffed my face. I wish I could be bolemic. But I don't like to throw up. Oh well.

I wrote this last night at 1 AM, when I couldn't get to sleep. So many thoughts. I was dead tired, but just couldn't sleep. You all know what I mean.

She was always there for me. She comforted me when I needed her. She stood by me. She was always very giving. Not a day would go by that we would not atleast talk on the phone. She as there when others weren't. She was with me on the most emotional day of my life. I loved her. She was one of the best friends I ever had. But then it happened, and I lost her. I still don't fully understand what I did wrong. I miss her so much. Its been almost 3 months since then. I can honestly say that not one day goes by that I don't think of her. I miss her more than words can describe. I need my friends so badly right now. I know many are here for me, though distances and boyfriends keep us apart. It keeps me up at night. The pain I have. I miss her so fucking much. We had the best of times together. We were so close. I didn't have to act like someone I wasn't when I was with her. She apparntly felt differently. I really just want to know exactly what I did. I want to fight for her back, but others have advized me not to. I just need to get this out there. Maybe she'll realize how badly I need her. I just want her to be happy. And if that means being without me...I guess I'll just have to deal. I've tried dealing for over 2 months. It doesn't get easier. I've nearly completely gotten over the ex, but she was much more special to me than he will ever be. I can't say I'm sorry, because I don't exactly know what to be sorry for. I know I can be extremely emotional one second and be perfectly fine the next. Its a fault. I can't change it. Its the way I am. A moody teenage girl. IF she reads this, then I just want her to know that I still love her, and I wish her the best of luck with everything, even if it excludes me.

"Its not where, but who you're with that really matters." Couldn't agree w/ya more Dave.

Tonite I went to see Alex & Emma with my mom, Meghan, my cousin Anna, and my aunt Helen. When we are together, everything is funny. Anyways, even though the movie got AWFULL reviews, I liked it! It was just a typical romantic comedy, but it was good! Kate Hudson was awesome, she played multiple characters, which were really funny. She does accents really well. Out of 10, I give it a 6.

After the movie, we were discussing our plans for a picknick tomorrow, when this middleaged couple walks up to us, and the man says "Do you ladies know where SERILLOE road is?" He said it will the L's instead of a Y!!! Like how texans do it!!! It was the funniest thing I've heard in a really long time. Poor guy, we all CRACKED UP, and couldn't breath. My aunt finally said, "yeah, CERILLOS (the correct way) road...." and proceeded to give him directions, while Meghan and I continued to die laughing. Luckily we didn't really die. But I always pretend like tourists say Cerilllllos, but I have never actually heard it! Anyways, they walked away, saying something about not being able to find their car, lol. Then another couple walks near us and stops at their car nearby, and my mom cracks up, thinking it was the same couple, and that they passed right by their car without seeing it. Silly mommy. So we crack up again. Shouting things like "they changed into an older couple!" and proceeded (sp?) to gasp for breathe. Then a younger couple walked by, so we tease my mom about them changing too. Its alot funnier than it seems....its a "you had to be there" thing.

I saw 28 Days Later with Kyle last night. He loved it. It was barely good enough to see twice. I mean, its really good....just not good enough to see over and over, unlike Finding Nemo (3 times), Chicago (5 or 6 times?), and Monster's, Inc. (4 times).