I had fun going to target tonite. I originally went for sunglasses, but ended up with sunglasses, target brand robotussin (non-alcoholic, what the hell?), a double pack of altoids, and cough drops. I'm set for life. what more could you need? I already have a toothbrush. I'm prepared to be a bum now.

I am drained of all emotion. And its only Monday. I have to stop watching depressing movies. Thats what I blame my constant state of not caring on.

And I can't stop eating once I get home. I just eat a bunch of shitty food. I hate it. I can't make myself stop. Its getting worse, and its disgusting. I want to be bolimic. I don't like to throw up though.

I spent all day doing nothing. It was very nice. Woke up around noon, watched tv all day, and spent an hour at Wally World. And my body hurts. Especially my throat and my brain.

Its pretty sad, I came to the conclussion with a friend that parties with alcohol are soooooo much better than parties w/o alcohol. Even though I had a great time at Brian's, I definitely would've done the "Drop it like its hot" thing if I was intoxicated. It sets me free.

Being grounded hasn't been that bad so far. Friday night Jess and Paula came over and we watched Newsies and they spent the night. Saturday we went to a swimmeet to take pictures for yearbook, so we hung out with Kat there. I actually enjoyed it. I love taking pictures with the still camera. And naked bodies. Everywhere.

Last night I saw Along Came Polly with my mom, Jess, Daniel, and Teresa. It was so funny, I loved it. Then Kat spent the night. Yet another non-schoolnight that I went to sleep well before midnite. How sad. Today I get to work. No school tomorrow!

What a weekend.

I'm grounded for quite some time. I'm gonna go crazy, not being able to go out.

Thats all I have to say about that.

School.

I want to drop calc. Now he's collecting homework, and I don't know how to do the work. At all. Its a whole different type of not knowing...nothing I've ever experienced in past math classes. It freaks me out.''

Tomorrow Chris' band "The Puff Daddies" is playing at Warehouse, along with the Blue Waldos. I'm so glad Chris is in town, I get to hang out with him. I invited Dex to come, he said maybe, he would talk to Chris. I really really hope he comes, I want to see him so bad.

I'm back home, and already bored out of my mind. It just really irritates me when none of my friends answer their phones.

I'm the kind of person that has to leave the house and do something productive everyday, or I go kinda crazy. So I slept in till 1 today, and began calling people at 3. I only got a hold of Kyle, who says he's going to sleep at 6, and Paula, who won't be back for an hour, since she's in Albuquerque.

Chris Day was in town yesterday, and I missed him since I didn't get back home till 1am.

I just really want to get out of the house more than anything.

Happy New Year.