FUCK

Don't you hate it when you forget (sometimes on purpose, sometimes not) that you have important stuff to do? Well I am still in the process of procrastinating homework since I didn't get home to Alb until 1130 last night, and since Josh got a cat we stayed up till 130 playing with it. I have a soc test. I guess I'll just read over the notes. My honors group is meeting at 530, I haven't done any of my research. But I will do it between english and pilates, since I have an hour to waste. And I honestly forgot about that. I just don't care about soc. I'll care later I guess.

Our cat is named Cooper and he is white with orange on his back and he is really really friendly and loving and he purrs alot and he's really smart! He pooped in the makeshift litter box we created! I love him!

And now I have to drive across town for work. Fuck.

LET THE RAIN SPLASH ALL OVER YOU

Ahh, I love Santa Fe. I love everything about it. I love playing bingo at my grandma's house. I love napping with Boots. I love making fun of the chickens, I love the musical cars we play in the driveway. I love watching the food network. I love village inn. I love pancakes. I love how I got my stupid brother in trouble (he deserved it).

And I love how we are going to the mountains tomorrow to look at all the snow!! Meghan (sister) and her friends went sledding all over today and said the whole drive up is crazy, cuz there's just huge piles of snow on both sides of the road. She said she'd never seen so much snow here. I'm so excited! And I KNEW I should have brought pants and shoes for sledding. I just knew it!! I think I'll find something though and sled anyways, and just brave the cold. I think our plan is to go to Angelfire next weekend...if the cool sledding run there is still open. That would rock.

I love my kitties. Boots loves to hang outside with me and Rocky loves to be fat and cute and dirty and he likes to meow. Boots likes to bug mom too. April (dog) likes to lick the floor and bark at dad even when she recognizes his truck. I want to take Boots home with me. He's so lovey, even when I wake him up just to carry him around in that weird way that we like. Boots also loves it when Matt spins him, even though he'd never admit it. He does not, however, like it when Matt holds his head. Bad Matt.

Last night I saw Chloe! It was so weird! I was picking up Kat and Becca from Coronado to take them to Phi Delt and Chloe was out front with her boyfriend, who lives there, I guess! Her hair looked so pretty and I'm still not over it. She always had trouble with her hair and now its so pretty! It made me think of when we all went to Cochiti Lake at the very end of the summer, right before Harlie and Forrest left. I love those kids. And Nick too. Haha that was awesome when Tom couldn't go in the convenience store cuz he wasn't wearing a shirt, so he proceded to record his dissapointment on his camcorder.

Man I cannot wait till summer!! Kat and I went to AE and my feet got so excited when they saw the flipflops! And I tried on the cutest frilly white shirt that I can't wait to buy! And capris! I love feeling like a hillbilly wearing capris with my hightops. I can't wait to sport that when I climb trees! I'll be so buff from pilates I'll be able to scale those downtown trees in no time! And I'll be able to return to my lovely home of Super Salad! None of this Hallmark shit anymore, but back to Shawn & Angela!

Irena called me today! We talked and laughed for like an hour, it was fun! I miss her. I love reminiscing (sp???) about this summer with her. It was so fucking fun, I'm still not over it.

I want to take a road trip so bad. I don't care that its not warm yet. I'm itching to go soak myself in Pagosa Springs for a couple days. And later this summer to tube down the river. !!Oohh! And there will be alot more water in it this summer, so our butts won't hit the rocks like they always do! Score!!!

Matt is gonna be here in Santa all week, which makes me very sad because 1) Hello, I won't get to see him for a week! I'll die!! This will be the last you all see of me. Goodbye. 2) He'll be in Santa and I won't, which makes me jealous. I can't live without my Matt, I don't know what I'll do. I guess I'll just die.

I'd like to apologize to everyone with whom I was short this week. I've been in this weird mood for most of it, I have no idea why. I think my allergy medication is draining all of my energy, and I've just been grumpy for some reason. I think I miss my family, since I haven't been home to Santa in like 3 weeks. Thats why I'm going there tomorrow. And I'm gonna go early, and I may stay the night. I'm not sure yet. I just feel like all week i've been on the verge of tears for no particular reason. I've let little things get me down, little things that shouldn't even throw me off as much as they did. I was just extra-sensitive, and so I'm sorry to everyone.

LETS KEEP IT TOGETHER, CAN WE KEEP IT TOGETHER?

Holy shit, I cannot believe how HORRIBLE Jeopardy was tonite!! It was even the Tournament of Champions, meaning they kicked major ass back in the 80s when they were on the show. Two of the guys won tens of thousands of dollars and are now attorneys, and the other guy one the teen championship in 2002, so he's still in college, so I accept him sucking. But the other two have no excuse. They didn't get half of the questions in the second round, so one attorney and the college kid ended the 2nd round with negative points, so they didn't even go on to final jeopardy. The other attorney got the question right though and ended up with like...$25,000 I think. It was very very disappointing. However, I did really good in the astronomy category! Go lunar eclipses!

"I wonder if the pilgrams were CLEVER enough to put peanut butter in their celery." -Kitty from That 70s Show

Today sucked. Like really really sucked. Even though I faked cheery most of the day, I was faced with the feeling of not being wanted anymore. Its really a GREAT feeling. Really. Really. Great.

On a lighter note, I saw Mona Tokmachi today! Kat and I were stuffing our faces full of delicious philly cheesesteak sandwiches from Higher Grounds at the pond, and she was walking across the bridge! I hadn't seen Mona since....my birthday, probably! I miss her, she was always really fun. To those who don't know, Mona went to St Mike's through....sophomore year I think, and we were really close friends.

On another lighter note, Kat almost officially has a boyfriend! I'm very happy for her, and apparently Doug really likes her. She was bugging Paula and I with her lovy happiness while we were in bad moods. But good for Kat, she's been waiting for this one.

Howie and Dave (my mice) are getting really smart! Ok, Dave is actually just getting really fat, but Howie is getting smart! He is so intent on escaping the cage! He shimmies up behind the water bottle and looks around, way close to the top of the cage. If he could only cling onto the ceiling like spiderman and chew on the roof for a while, he'd be a free man. I try to tease him, by leaving the skylight open. He stretches up on the cheese wedge and really tries. He just needs to pull himself up and out of there. In the meantime, I'm teaching them both a way cool trick. I put my arms out beside my body in a straight line, and put on of them in my hand, and they run up my arm, across my shoulders, and down the other arm, into my other hand, just like in The Green Mile! Its so cool! Only they ACTUALLY sit in my hand, and I raise my hand up so they have to climb down, then they stop at the base of my arm, so I put them on my other shoulder and put my arm down, so he climbs down the other side. However, my goal is to have them do the trick quickly and on their own, the way I explained it the first time. I love my micies!

JESUS ON THE RADIO

I really lucked out in spanish today. I knew we had to do our group presentation, but our group had not gotten together, so I went to class with only the cd Matt gave me (thank you!) that had a bunch of spanish music on it. Luckily no one else in the whole class was prepared either. So I really just have to look up a hispanic artist and talk about them for 3 minutes. I picked Gloria Estefan, because she was my 2nd favorite singer when I was younger. Once class started I got a hair in my eye and could not get it out, and did not get it out until 12:20. I was not happy, and neither was my eye. It was one of those little white hairs, that probably came from a off of someone in my class's dog.

After classes I went to Wally World on Carlisle to help my mom finish up an installation and to go eat with her. We went to Church's, and we got blocked in my a semi for half an hour. Walmart changed their bags from blue to white and its freaking me out. And when my mom dropped me off at my car back at Wmart she drove away with my phone. Luckily and suprisingly I had a calling card in my wallet...not sure where it came from...and used a payphone, which was also weird.

I almost got into 2 accidents today. I was being way smart. I blame one on a retarded trucker blocking the light, and another on a guy just being an asshole and not letting me drive infront of him.

Josh has been asleep for a really long time, since I got home. I wonder if I should go poke him or something. I probably should start editing my english essay....

after That 70's Show.

WHO WERE YOU JUST THINKING OF, DIANE?

Today I felt underappreciated and unwanted. I've always felt that people take advantage of me, but then when I try to avoid this, I seem like a bitch. I'm having a really hard time finding a point between the two. When I do favors for people or lend them money, etc., they step all over me. Take my sister, Meghan. I remember driving her places when she asked, buying her fast food, taking her friends places, and such. She was always such a bitch to me anyways. And then if I refuse to take her places, I'm a bitch. I used to tell her I'd take her if she took her trash out of my car, that didn't solve anything. She is probably the most difficult person my family and I have ever had to deal with. But I don't feel that bad today. I'm just edgy for some reason.

Maybe because this weekend was so depressingly uneventful. Saturday I didn't do a damn thing till like 9pm. I woke up at 10, which was a great start, and went to the bank. I came back home, and fell asleep on the couch and didn't wake up till 3pm, and then watched tv until 9. Kat and I went to this guy Doug's party. (Humming the theme song to Doug) Doug is Kat's new guy, I really hope this one works out, cuz he seems like a very good pick. The party was weird. We played this really fun drinking game called Moose, which involves an ice cube tray. Very simple and fun. We were trying to figure out if all the kids there were in high school or college, and it really seemed like high school, but it ends up that all but one of them go to unm....weird.

I FINALLY got into the 2nd session of my pilates class. I checked itel in the library today and the class finally had an opening. I'm really glad I got into it, pilates is my only form of exercise right now, although I'm trying to convince myself to also do pilates on my own on wednesdays, it sucks that the class is only twice a week.

Having thoughts, trying to ignore them in order to avoid trouble.

Tomorrow is 5 months with Matt. Wow, it does not seem like its been that long at all! I love you, Matt!

MONKEY SEE, MONKEY DO

I'd just like to take this opportunity to publicly thank my brother and his friends for: reading my playboy, leaving candy, gushers, and cookies all over my room, staining my comforter with chocolate whipped cream, leaving the chocolate whipped cream can on the floor, leaving a half-empty corona bottle on my nightstand, leaving the beer-soaked mop behind the refrigerator, putting a hole in the living room wall, leaving many coronoa beer caps all over the house, putting a stereo on top of my Steve Miller Band's greatest hits vinyl record, ruining the envelope to Matt's valentine's card, filling out an entire week in my daily Jeopardy calendar, staining the floor with their "jungle juice," filling the sink with jungle juiced dishes, and leaving many interestingly damp towels in the bathroom. Thanks guys, you filled an hour and a half of my evening with pure joy.

On a lighter note, Josh Zwemer is moving in with me! I'm excited to finally have a housemate that isn't my idiot brother. Should be fun. Although Teresa is coming to take the tv, entertainment center, and possibly the little couch. Oh well, Josh has a tv.

And now I need to write an essay. Just needed to vent.

Happy Valentine's Day. I love you, Matt!

STOP buying crap!

OK! So I can finally post. My computer had some problems this last month or so. It's still sick, but atleast it will let me post and email now.

School's going good, I like all of my classes. Sadly, my least favorite is Sociology. The professor talks too fast, and expects us to read the entire chapter before he even starts lecturing on it. And he talks too quietly. Its really hard to take notes w/him. I have no problem w/reading the chapter because I like sociology....just not the teacher I guess. I love pilates. Its hard, but its fun, and I can already feel myself getting better at it. I wish it was more than twice a week though. And I'll be pissed if I can't get into the session for the rest of the semester. It forces me to exercise, because its for a credit.

So Wednesday night Kat and I went to see the sneak peek of Hitch at Cottonwood, but it was full, so we headed over to the dollar theater, and saw Ray. When we came out, my door was unlocked, the glove compartment was open, and my DMB cd case that had 30 cds in it, and my other cd case with 40 cds were both gone. The estimated cost of all the cds plus the cases is $1130. Luckily insurance will take care of it. According to what Matt saw on the news, there's been alot of break-ins on the west side, so hopefully they'll find the fuckers. I was really pissed when it happened (and by pissed I mean cry-ie), but now I've accepted it and I just look forward to going on a cd shopping spree with the money from the insurance company. Although I think I'll save some of it, as I am almost broke again.

I think I'm gonna have to work for Halmark again. Souper Salad isn't gonna work out, and my mom needs to hire people in Alb, and I already know how to do it, and its good money, AND I get to work whenever I want. I just hate the actual work. Stocking cards at Wal-mart. I HATE wal-mart. I wish I didn't even shop there. But its the cheapest place....and I'm poor. So I don't really have a choice.

Valentine's day is coming up next week...oh man. I know what I'm gonna get for Matt, I just wish I had a better idea than this. Its convenient....but not necessarily romantic. I mean, what do you get for a guy? Kat said cologne....no...and no one else has suggested anything. So we'll see.

I'm watching the Super Bowl and the commercials suck so far. I might as well be doing homework.

And earlier when I was driving home I saw a stop sign that said "buying crap" underneath it and thought it was pretty funny. Last night we talked about "HUMP Dr. Greer's Mom" and I also remember "this SCHOOL sucks!"