OHHH, BACK TO SCHOOL

School started back up to day. I went to Spanish 202 at 9:30 and then onto Music Appreciation at 11. Both of them were cool. My brother's ex-roomate, Kayla, who is nice but unpredictable, is in my spanish class. I heard all sorts of horror stories about Music, especially from Brian, who said it was horrible and boring. But my teacher is a funny average dude in his early 30's, and we listened to The Police's "Every Breathe You Take," and disected it in all sorts of cool little ways. So I already like that class.

I also got to hang with Kat, Paula, and Mat for a couple hours which was fun, and I showed Paula where all of her classes were.

So it was a pretty nice day, tomorrow I've got Sociology 101 (w/Kat), and English 102. Thurs brings Spanish and Music again, followed by my honors class, which seems fairly interesting, and Fri I've got Soc and Eng again and then a two hour break until Pilates class at 5 (every Mon and Fri night). I'm really looking forward to Pilates so I can finally battle the bulge.

I've been very happy since I've been able to spend the past couple of days with Matt, which was very very nice. I really missed seeing him every day, and after feuding and making up with him last week, I love being with him even more. I was not too happy to be back in Albuquerque because I just don't like the city, but Matt makes it more than worth it. I love that kid.

I just watched like 2 hours of American Idol auditions. Some people are just plain retarded.

I'LL GO ON FOREVER KNOWNING I'LL SEE YOU AGAIN

Well I'm back in Albuquerque. My car was stuffed with twice as much stuff as it had when I was going back home to Santa Fe. A whole bunch of Christmas shit, I guess. Kat, Paula, and Becca are all still in Santa Fe, and Matt is working, so I am left with nothing to do except try to use AOL for as long as possible, until they figure out the credit card I have on the account has been dead for months, and I'll probably get into trouble with that again. I looked into getting DSL put in, since we don't even use the phone line, it'll cost 50 bucks to get the modem (or something) ten for installation, 30 each month, shipping, installation....I dunno. I guess I'll have to go without the net for a while until my brother agrees to pay half the installation fee and shit like that.

I could be watching Good Eats right now, but those days are over and I am once again faced with 7 channels, if you include the Jesus channel.

Ooh! But I got my Warehouse package today!! They gave me the coolest mousepad I have ever seen! It has live scenes and Dave Matthews Band and the Warehouse written all over it, and its that sorta thing where you move it back and forth and the images dissapear and appear....I'm sure there's a name for it...hologram? Dunno, but its so cool. Too bad I don't have a mouse...oh well. I'll put in on my wall. They also gave me a 7-live-song cd which has rare ones, like Blue Water, JTR, Raven, and I'll Back You Up. And I love the into they've been doing these past few years to One Sweet World. Its my favorite intro, very pretty.

I leave the front door open to the house just so I don't feel alone. This way I can look at the competing house across the street and know there is someone nearby. (ABC World News Tonight just showed a really cool avalanche)

There is no food in the house, I'm eyeing the oriental noodles, that are just plain noodles and cook like Ramen I guess...but I have nothing to eat them with but salt and pepper...mmm.

Over all this, I'm glad to be back in the same city as Matt, and I'm looking forward to some classes, like Soc and Pilates, because I'm getting too fat, and this way I have to work out.

So I haven't posted in quite some time. But thats because my computer is crappy lately and I'd rather not even bother with it. But I'm making a killing tonite.

So Christmas was cool. I got a whole bunch of cool little things. And $100 to Old Navy, since my mom didn't buy us clothes this year. She decided we could get alot more with the after Xmas sales. And I still haven't gone, so there will be nothing left, and the sales are over. Oh well. I just want 2 pairs of good jeans and I'm fine. Matt gave me a flippin' sweet book by Alton Brown called "I'm Just Here for More Food." Its awesome. I haven't really dug into it yet, but I will once I return to Alb and have more time. The one thing I wanted most was cool plates and bowls for my boring house, and only Kat got me some. Two little kid sets with a cup, bowl, plate, and a spoon I think. They're flippin' awesome!

Been doing some pretty good quality partying this break. A very successful party at Kassi's for Kat's birthday, a great New Year's party at Sexy Kyle's, and a going away party for Irena last night at Kyle Tuffli's (aka Mediocre Kyle). Matt was able to attend all three, and seemed to have a good time with my friends, which are now becoming his friends as well. He's fitting in very nicely with everything. My family loves him, even though he really is just with me to get to Lorn (Gross Matt, really sick). Its hard being away from him for more than a couple days, but with both of us working more, its hard. He's in classes all this coming week from 8-5, so I'll make a couple evening runs down there. He took me to an opening of a museum....well, it was the empty building that a museum is going to be in. I felt bad that I didn't really fit in. Its the Unser Racing Museum. And I know absolutely NOTHING about racing, and its Matt's life, so I felt out of place when I had nothing to say to anyone, except for the women in the bathroom when we discussed the backed-up toilet. But it was fairly fun to dress up, and Matt looks especially cute when he's in a suite.

So my mom forgot to pay UNM on time, and now I may be dissenrolled, which means I'll have to re-register for my classes, which will royally SUCK, considering I barely got into the classes I really want: Pilates and the cool honors class about pirates and stuff. I especially need to be in pilates so that I am forced to exercise. I'm getting too fat.

Just four more days of work at Souper Salad and then I'm done till this summer. I've enjoyed working as a server, its put me in a new social circle at work. The mexicans in the back still hate me, I can tell. Only two of the women like me back there. And we can't even really talk. I tried talking to one of them, and she talked too fast and I gave up. And I'm majoring in Spanish. I'm looking forward to school starting up again. And I'll need to find another job right away. I'm gonna talk to my managers at Le Soup to see if they can get me any sweet hookups with the Soupers in Alb. That would be sweet. I hate always needing money. And then I go and blow it on pitches and gas and food. Oh well.

Irena left back to Hawaii last night. It was really fun having her back, I missed my spoony. Kassi left a week ago, and I feel bad because I didn't get to say bye to her. But I still plan on going to San Diego....so I should see her soon enough. Kyle will prolly be leaving soon. And Paula's here to stay!! I'm so glad she's back for good. I missed her alot alot. I hope she'll like it at UNM.

That should hold me off for a while. Take care, kids.

E, I <3 SF

I'm home! I love it here and I missed all my friends so much. Irena got back today, had a party for Kat's bday on Friday, Paula's back for good, yay! Kat's party was the most successful party at Kassi's dad's house that has ever gone down. It was soooo fun. And I got to that perfectly pleasantly drunken state. With very little hangover. Awesome.

But because of all this, I am seeing way less of Mateo. Haven't seen him since early Saturday morning. Seems like he and some buddies will come up tuesday for Irena's party, and I'll go down to Alb for our 3-month anniversary on Wednesday. And we're gonna go to that light thing at the bio park! Yay! I really miss seeing him everyday. I find myself talking about him alot. Sidenote: my manager at Souper Salad thought he was younger than me.

And yeah I started at SS again today!! I was really nervous cuz I was starting as a server, not the cashier, and its way more stressful, but I got 35 in tips. And it wasn't too bad. I think I did well. I go in again en la manana at 930, til 3. And then I get to be cashier again until like Friday. I like cashier alot more. Even if it doesn't pay as much.

And my ear is bleeding....

I REACHED BACK LIKE A PIMP AND I SLAPPED THE HO

You know how Brian is always bitching about running to everyone in Santa Fe? I had a night like that. My dad had a fucking class reunion in the check-out line at Albertson's. He saw 3 guys he graduated with. It was weird. Then we went to the mall where we saw Ms. Larson (ahh!), then the Zold's, and then mid-Zold's we saw Mr. ARRRRmijo (why is it I ran into the only 2 teachers who hate me?), and then Marcos, Sammy, and Linda Y. And then Lynette at Best Buy (not too shocking...she works there.) It was weird. All of this happened in the span of less than an hour.

But I'm almost done with Christmas shopping. Just need Paula now! I'll take care of that tomorrow I suppose. Not sure what to get her just yet. Something that has to do with sex I'm sure.

Matt and I made up and I'm really glad. That was the worst 24 hours of my life (or alteast of my....2nd half of the year.)

WELL THAT IS THAT AND THIS IS THIS

Oh my god. I HATE crying. I try to avoid it as much humanly possible, but sometimes when you repress it it just builds up and kicks your ass. For four hours. And then you don't sleep. And then you look like all hell the next morning. I don't even know how much sleep I got, couldn't have been more than a couple hours. And my eyes are killing me. They are bloodshot and swollen. Good thing I'm only taking my last final today. Maybe shopping with Kat will make it better. I haven't really been hanging out with her much, and she really helped me out last night when I needed it. Sometimes I just get friend-overload, but she was still there for me. I love you Kat. And Paula was there for some pre-help too, even though she had problems of her own to deal with, and I hadn't talked to her for like a week. I'm really glad she's coming to UNM, I've really missed her and how close we used to be.

I suppose I'm ready for my astronomy final. I didn't do the homework questions, but I memorized all the webct questions and the in-class questions. But I also did that last time and I still don't know how well I did. Oh well. I really don't care. My main concern is getting those awesome vitamins from my pregnant friend in that class. It'll keep me from being so sickly.

And now I'm dreading winter break. I didn't realize how difficult this could be. But I've juggled things before, and now I just have another person to factor in, and thats probably the most important person. I just miss my friends alot. I haven't seen them in months, and its been weird, since I never used to go a day without them. I look forward to that. And I'm really nervous about Souper Salad since the managers are on vacation and some stupid general manager who doesn't know what their doing is there for them, so I'm afraid to go in and see if I'm even scheduled yet. They were supposed to call me before they went on vacation. Damnit.

I need coffee.

SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE I'M FALLING

Ugh. Finals. Its really not that bad, I just never study, so when I even study a little, its like the world is coming to an end. I have to add 5 pages to one essay and edit two others for my english portfolio. Not sure if I did really good or really bad on my math final. It was hard to tell. I was concentrating on drinking my tea, not sequences.

I reacted suprisingly bad to the news that Matt's mom didn't like me for a little bit. It upset me alot, and I'm not quite sure why. Prolly cuz I'm used to being the one that parents like. I remember the time Mark Bustamante told me his parents did like me....I felt horrible. Well, they had legitimate reasons (I kept him at my house 5 hours past his curfew, completely against his will). I just have always been liked by most parents, atleast as far as I know. And I didn't think not eating the food at Matt's grandparents' last night would be such a big deal. And I'm shy when I'm surrounded by people I don't know. Amy was the only one who made it a point to talkto me, and she's four. It was weird, and I feel really bad about it. I've been invited to go see Amy's dance recital next week, so I'll have to redeem myself then. I really don't care what most people think of me...but some people it matters. Like parents. If parents don't like you, they tell other parents, and then the other parents don't like you, and so on. Plus I don't want to do anything that would sabatage my relationship with Matt. Because although he makes my life busier, there's nothing I wouldn't do for him. I've never been in love until now, and I never want to let it go. I feel like a complete idiot most of the time, like when I fill the house with smoke because I can't build a fire, or I think my math exam is at 10am when its really at 12:30, or I forget about the important dinner he told me about weeks in advance and I didn't get off work for that night. Even though I'm a complete airhead like this, he still loves me. I feel So Damn Lucky.

MEMORIES OF EVERYTHING OF LEMON TREES ON MERCURY

So most of you have probably read Brian's blog by now and know how awesome Friday night was. So we got into the club with the help of Brian's parents, who left less than half an hour after we were in. Many many many thanks to Brian's parents. They made that night one of the funnest I have ever had. So Howie, of course, was really really fucking awesome. I took a 2.5 minute recording of SHE SAYS on my camera....I had a musical orgasm during that song. I involuntarily jumped up and down like a little girl when he said "This next song is called She Says." It was a little embarressing. But I love that song. Its the first one of his I ever heard, and its still my absolute favorite. And Alex Band of The Calling totally had the rocker bulge, and I got a nice close up picture of it. After the show, Kat and I got our picture with "Chops," the really cool guitarist of The Calling who looks like a much hotter version of Carrot Top. And hell, since we were in a bar......why the hell not? I spent $64 on my debit card at the bar (although I payed for Kat and Brian too) (YOU BOTH OWE ME $20!!!) And since none of us had eaten anything significant all day, we got very trashed very quickly. Kat shook her stuff on stage and got with Ryan from the Peak, who's an awesome guy, and was also trashed since he was celebrating his birthday which was Sunday. And all of the sudden we were the ONLY white people in that whole bar, and I'm not even exaggerating. It was so wierd. This one guy was looking at the "moose on my shirt" aka boobs and tried to kiss me and it was scary and I missed Matt. And of course my eye fruck out, but not as badly as usual, so Kat and Brian dumped me in my car and went to sober up, then dumped me in Brian's room while they went to Frontier and brought back Kieran and Katen (Kayton? Keaten?) who drove our drunken asses to my house, where I abruply passed out in my bed.

I wanted to leave by 9:30 to Santa to make empanaditas with my aunts, but we didn't leave till 2 since I really thought death was coming for me. Kat and Brian, of course, felt just great. I got their share of hangovers.

Then I got to pick up Matt Sunday night, and I was very happy to see him. And Mabel, this girl I was in 6th grade with, was in the same little group thingy as him, which was crazy. But I'm so happy Matt is back. I really missed him. I had to stay alone in my creepy house for 5 nights. But I blame him for my sore throat now, since he's always sickly.

And tonite my mommy daddy and Lorn brought me some firewood and xmas lights, and we went to Dion's, and to the mall. It was fun. Yay.

Its cold in my house. The fire burnt out.

DON'T STOP HERE

So last night, Howie news went from really really fucking awesome, to not so good, to not good at all. I got an email from Elana, the merch queen, saying she needed two people to help at the booth. Awesome. I emailed her back right away saying Brian and I would help out. She emails back in five minutes. They already had someone. Oh well. I think we can still get in. I call Ned's to check on the 21 rule again. This time the chick says there is no way anyone under 21 is getting in. Yet the dude a couple nights ago said it was fine since they would still be serving dinner, we could sit at the tables. What the hell. So looks like my chances with Howie tonite are pretty slim. I'll still try. But is it really bad that I'm not even too sad about the whole situation? I guess I'm not so attached to Howie now cuz he's getting popular, or atleast Collide is. I don't want to share him. I have loved Howie since like....'01. He was mine all mine all mine. I was willing to share him with Brian, and that was pushing it. And now everyone and their mom is going around humming "The dawn is breaking, a light shining through..." (and yes, my mom loves Collide. Along with both of my sisters. Its the #1 requested song in many cities right now.) But oh well. All good things must come to an end sometime.

But some good news - "I like guys too." -John Mayer

I FINALLY FELL IN LOVE, I'VE BEEN WAITING FOREVER

The semester is coming to an end and I'm starting to really freak out. I'm not showing it, but I'm constantly feeling anxious, and I hate it. I have a research paper, 8-10 pages, due next Wednesday, and I don't have a topic yet. I have a spanish presentation on Tuesday, where I have to talk for 5 minutes with NO notes, and I haven't started that. I have 3 weeks of math homework to catch up on, and a project to do with Nick for Thursday. And I have to do my english portfolio, and I don't even know what that means.

But when all of that is over, it will be winter break, and I will be working at Souper Salad, which is my favorite job ever. Paula, Lorn, and I will go back to The Painted Dish and finish our beautiful pieces of art. I'll do pilates with Lorn everyday and we will get awesome hot bods in one month. Paula will be back for good and I will be so happy because I really really miss her. I'll drink eggnog everyday. It will be Christmas!

Matt is leaving tomorrow, and I won't see him again till Monday. This will be very, very hard for me. It's hard when I can't even spend the night with him. It's not gonna be easy.

WHERE YOU ARE, THAT'S WHERE I WANNA BE

I met Matt's family last night. And he didn't warn me that I was going to. Bastard. It turned out fine though. His 5 year old sister, Amy, who is adorable, took a liking to me. She's the one that seemed the most intersted, anyway. He says they liked me, but his parents didn't really talk to me. That's ok. The banquet had killer mashed potatoes. *Sidenote: I'm starving, and just decided I'm gonna make mashed potatoes out of the potatoes that have been sitting in my fridge since I moved in. This is gonna rock.* But I had fun last night. Amy invited me to go play horses with her in her room sometime, which I look forward to.

I'm considering quitting Keva Juice before winter break. If I work there over break, I will be driving between Alb and Santa so much that I won't even be making any money. Plus, Souper Salad is hiring, which has been my favorite job so far. I could work there during break. But then I'd have to find another job when I get back. Its something to consider.

Drunken Exorcist night with Brian and Matt was fun. The Admiral kicked mine and Brian's asses the next day though. I left Keva Juice after an hour. I didn't want to barf on the customers, and the wheat grass was making that difficult to control. I never threw up, but I did sleep for 3 hours. And then Kat and I went to Becca's dancy thing, which was awesome. She's getting really good. And it turns out I might have been re-introduced to my first friend ever: Reesa (sp?). She was my friend when I was like 3. Her mom and my mom were friends. And she's in dance with Becca. It'd be cool if its her. Can't wait to find out.

Gotta go buy milk for mashed potatoes. Woohoo! I love mashed potatoes!!

A MIRACLE AND A TRAGEDY

All at the same time. Got this from The Peak website.

Peak's Acoustic Christmas with Howie Day and The Calling
Friday December 03
It's a holiday show with Howie Day, The Calling, and local groups Soular and Man Born Blind at Ned's Downtown. Tickets are just $5 at the door and all of that goes to buy gifts for the children of the Giving Tree. This is a 21+ show.

Brian and I are making up a plan of attack as I write this. We will find away around it.

THERE'S A LOG ON THE FIRE, AND IT BURNS LIKE ME FOR YOU

I guess its about time to post again.

I've been working when I'm not at school and at school when I'm not at work. It was a busy week. I almost, ALMOST went to all of my classes. If I hadn't had to work at 3:30 on thursday I would have gone to Astro, but that class ends at 3:15, and there's no way I could make it across the city in 15 minutes.

Thats another reason why I don't like Albuquerque. Its just too big. I think I'd like to stick with Santa Fe-sized cities. Santa Fe is so personal, and I know every little corner of that city. Albuquerque....its ugly to start with. Its just not a pretty place. Except for a couple parts. I drove down Rio Grande Blvd on my way home, it was really pretty. Tons of cute ranches with horses and big big trees. And I have to remember to tell Jacinda I saw a Dietz Road and a Dietz Ranch. Its her last name, and its not too common, so I thought that was cool. And I heard Changes by David Bowie on the radio (radio free Santa Fe, actually) when I was driving through there. I love that song! I just downloaded it! For free! I downloaded Goodbye Yellowbrick Road by Elton John last week. Sweet!

So yeah, I don't like Albuquerque. But actual school is ok. I like the campus. It has a lot of huge trees and I love huge trees.

And of course I've been spending alot of time with Matt. Unfortunately we both are busy alot, with work and school, so we usually only see eachother at night. But weekends are usually better. I only worked till 5 last night so we all got to party together. Kat, Matt, Becca, Dylan, and the like. It was a total sausagefest. Hanging out at Phi Delt rocks. And I love playing DDR now. Weird. And I love hanging out with Matt. Especially when we study. :)

"GOOSE-TER"

It took a couple months and lots of internet time, but I finally read all of Guster's Road Journal: http://www.guster.com/test/tanindexflashsite.html
The drummer, Brian, AKA "Thundergod" writes the current entries, although the first ones, dated all the way back to May of '00, are written by all 3 members. They are hilarious, I recommend them to everyone when they need to waste months of their lives.

Oh, and Guster's music isn't too bad either.

And Irena showed me a groovy website, http://www.thefacebook.com/. Its like myspace, but there are less people, and its only a representation of given universities. UNM is one. I looked up St. Mike's and found several kids. Its a fun site as well. Check it out.

"FUCK YOU! I DON'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT WHAT YOU'RE GOING TO EAT!"

I am soooooooo glad Nov 2nd is here. I'm so fucking sick of seeing those damn commercials on tv. I took my absentee ballot into Santa Fe on Wednesday, and I wish the tv knew. The commercials would stop. Stupid backstabbing commercials. I wish they really played the "Kerry is Satan" video, that would just be funny. Don't get me wrong, I voted for Kerry. Its just a funny little clip.

I love David Spade. Llama face!

COPYING BRIAN

because its just fun. Plus people are bitching about me needing to post. So here ya go

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Yeah, guilty. I wanna be a hippy.

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I'm definitely more lazy than grunge...but thats kinda the same thing.

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Its raining!!

Rain is nice. Especially an hour ago when I had to walk all the way from the SUB to Phi Delt...which to those who don't know, is quite a distance...about a 15 minute walk. And it especially sucks when its raining. I got soaked. SOAKED. But its really ok, because it was fun walking in the rain. I just wish I didn't have to do it alone. I like jumping in puddles...I need a puddle-jumping-buddy.

Having a boyfriend is fun. I'm soooo happeh :D

And competely smitten. Completely.

I Hope Tomorrow Is Like Today

I'm awake, you're still sleeping
The sun will rise like yesterday
Everything that we are now
Is everything we can't let go
Or its gone forever, far away
I hope tomorrow is like today
Don't you go away tomorrow
I don't think I could handle that
You're probably dreaming that you're flying on
Then you start to fall
But then you rise
and shine forever
Don't go away
I hope tomorrow is like today
-Guster


My title never shows up, and I don't know why. Kristin!

Wrinkle Tard

On the way home today I found myself smiling for no reason. Well, no reason other than the fact that I spent the day with Matt instead of doing all of my very important homework. That can wait till tonite. I'm so happy -- I have been this happy in a very long time. Yet he's so bad for me. I slacking with my school work. I have to get my act together. I just need to get past the initial smitten phase and I'll be ok. Then I'll be able to function again.

"Your mom's chest hair!!"

Be Calm, Be Brave, It'll Be OK

Things that bother me about Albuquerque:

1. Not as liberal as Santa Fe. Of course, this would be hard to do in the first place. But I drive around and see the Dubya stickers everywhere, and not one "No War!" sticker, except for my own. Far too many republicans here. Even though I was told its actually pretty evenly divided. I'm just used to SF, where everyone and their mom is either democratic, a hippy, or a lesbian. And I miss that.

2. The curbs here are too high up! Everytime I park on the street, my door always scratches against the curb. Why must they make them so high up? I see no reason except to hurt my car!

That is all for now. I'll think of more.